you know i know


it breaks her heart
when i start
it breaks her heart
when it begin
it breaks her heart
when i dont understand

how could i even forgive myself
but you had forgiven me
all the chances you had given me
yet i still failed to cheer you up

i will not fall and i will not give up
because i know you will wait
knowing
you and me forever as one
my kisses for you is just like
a shot through the loop

it breaks her heart
when i start
it breaks her heart
when it begin
it breaks her heart
when i dont understand

and all i wanted to hear was
i love you
and all i want to say is
im sorry

seriously damn damn damn damn damn long didnt update le. feel damn lazy and also busy with my school work. going to upload my genting photos. hope i can remember everything during the 4 days with B. alot alot alot more to be updated la. siannn. feeling stress also due to my 2 projects. and i only get to meet baby once a week. damn siann. seriously no time to do whatever i want. haissss. anyway, im going to update my trip to genting on 17 of june to 21 june:)

day 1
went over to baby house at evening time. reached her house put my bag and went down to meet my parents for dinner at pek kio. after dinner waited for baby family to come down and went for another round of dinner. didnt eat much la. hahas. after which, went back to baby house wait for her to pack finish her luggage. after packing b dad fetched us to hougang, where the pick up point was. reach there saw some of her relatives. damn shyy. hahas. waited for everyone to arrive and went up the bus. so glad to be seated with baby. and we were sitting at the last roll. hahas. bus went off to custom. reach custom scan my passport and out of sg. went up the bus again and headed to malaysia custom. hahas. reached malaysia custom we had be unload all our luggage and let them scan and chop. baby was infront of me and she went to chop her passport and followed by me. when it was my turn that guy ask is that ur sister-.- hahas. damn funny la. after which scan our luggage and off to genting:) tried not sleep during the whole journey, was kinda afraid. but baby sleep like a pig laaa. hahas. anyway, reached genting around 4am which is 18 of june:)

day2 18 june
reached genting went to the lobby and booked in our luggage. while the adults went to casino and the kids went around lor. since it was morning 4am, most of the shops are close la. arghhh. walked around and walked to first world hotel. slack outside kfc and decided to play slump jack. played til 7 baby legs began to feel itchy. shes allegy to cold la. and her med is with her mum. decided to go to the lobby to wait for her mum and i saw my grandparents. went to greet them and chat with them awhile. after having med we went down to old town white coffee to have breakfast. add nasi lemak and drink their hot chocolate. damnnn nice. and after eating i fall asleep at there la and they took photo of me. damn unglamm. shitttt. anyway went back up to lobby soon after that. everyone was tired le la and kinda had a small quarrel with baby. after soooo long we finally had our room. went up immediately and baby went to sleep. soon, i went to join baby:) and our quarrel just end like that. hahas. pro right. slept all the way til 7 and we decided to have our dinner. walked til first world hotel. and had roasted chicken for dinner. after dinner we wanted to catch a movie but all the movie we had seen b4. so we decided to skip it. since we had no where to go, we decided to go outside to walk and enjoy the breeze. seriously a very nice place to walk. took photo with baby too. after which baby mum went to casino while we went back to first world for star bucks. everyone ordered one drink for themselve and we share among ourselves. didnt except b cousin went to steal the sweet la. stupid. anyway went around to take photo with baby again:) went up the lover bridge and took photo. hahas. after our starbuck we decided to head back to the hotel to slack and play slump jack. played all the way til 3 and head to bed. once again, sleeping with baby:) wooo. end of day 1 at genting:)

day 3.
woke up early in morning. prepared and went to had our breakfast at marybrown. hahas. ate porridge while baby ate fish and chip. queued and bought our ticket before having our breakfast. after breakfast. we went inside the theme park. went in we immediately went to queue up for the cyclone. didnt played cyclone for yearss la. kinda looking forward to it. hahas. after playing we went to see our pic and i was freaking unglam to the maxxx laa. my hair was center parting not side lorrr. after which we went to play pirate ship. before going there we played at those stall game. where we were given a pole to pick the duck up. the number represent wat prize we will get. but i keep talking 0. arghh, anyway went up to the pirate ship. first time in my life i took that. but i was not afraid la. when the game started, i was spamming photo like hell la. took all the unglamness of baby and her sister. hahas. after the pirate ship we headed to the cockscrew. another game that i never played b4. hahas. camwhores while waiting for our turn. during the ride i heard baby screaming laaa. and she said she was telling me she hit her head. hahas. lucky baby was alright laaa. after that went to queue for the fun kart. queue fucking longgg laaa. end up i took the best car while the rest took the slower one. i managed to drive 5 to 6 rounds while the rest drive only 3 4 rounds lor. hahas. after the ride we make out way to the flume ride. wanted to take the thundermine but it was close. hahas. camwhores again during the queue and we wrote things on the wall. hahas. it was our turn and we go first and b brother and cousin was behind us. hahas. during the ride b cousin splash water at me and i accidentally hit my mouth to baby head and cos bleeding in my gum. arghhhh. anyway finish the ride and thundermine was open and we went to take it. took thundermine for the 2nd time after we came out the first time. after thundermine we walked to dragon ride. queue quit long for it also lor. and i managed to sit in the first roll with baby. baby and i got hit alot of time la. the stupid ride so firm. arghh. after the ride we headed to tobbagan. only weight less than 70 are allow and sway sway b cousin cant lor. saddddness. didnt enjoy that ride la, seriously a waste of our time. after the ride we head to flying coaster. we had to pay 12 riggit la. damnn. but fun fun fun ride. feel like superman laa. but surprisingly no one screamsss. hahas. after which we headed to spinner, our last ride. after the ride most of us were feeling dizzy la. damn dizzy. went to buy ice cream and we headed back to hotel to meet the rest. surprisingly all of us were treated to a buffet at genting highland. went to grab alot of food once we went in la. hahas. luckily we managed to eat finish everything. hahas. after dinner we decided to head back to the hotel to rest and relief my bowel. slack awhile and we headed to first world. decided to had a game of bowling. once again my first game in my life. hahas. was seriously shy at the beginning and my hands hurtss alot. my nail came out eventually. and not forgetting the ball flow backward during one of my throw, seriously unglam to the max. after the game we went to arcade to play awhile while b cousin and her brother went to play pool. after the arcade game we decided to go back to our hotel and slack. slack all the way til 3 plus again and head to bed:) another night with B again. shiokkkk:) wooo:)

day4
woke up around 11 plus and wanted to go swimming with baby and her sister. make our way to genting highland. reach there and we wanted to sign in. however they say the pool is only for genting highland and first world. ask them to close one eye for us but they didnt allow. and by then baby also dont feel like swimming le cos too little ppl swimming and alot of those guard. soooo, we make our way back to hotel and prepare to go out again:) prepare and walked to first world hotel:) had breakfast cum lunch at one hainan chicken rice stall. wanted to order food then some unpleasant things happened:( wont say much:) after meal we wanted to buy our indoor ticket which cost 30 bucks la. exxxx. after which a guy approached me. he asked me whether i want to buy outdoor and indoor ticket for 40 bucks. i rejected it at the beginning but come to think of it, it worth the price lor. hence, i went back to look for them and decide on the ticket and ppl. to gain my trust, the guy said that i can pay him after i get the wrist band over my hand. after getting i paid him and we went separated ways. onces again, went around and play the rides we played ytd. since it was sat that day all rides were having freaking long queue laa. this time we had baby cousin brother and his gf tagging along. they arrived in the morning:) went almost all the game again except flyer coaster, fun kart. managed to get the last roll for pirate ship and this time i video down the whole process. hahas. not going to upload those video:) this time we played thundermine for almost 3 4 time la. damn damn fun, however for flume ride they only allow 2 ppl. luckily a girl join yilin for her ride and i had my ride with baby:) by then it was night already. really enjoy that moment on the boat with baby la. damnnn sweet:) after the ride we decided to take space shot. seriously it took baby alot of courage to play la. and i thought i had played that b4 la. in the end i was shocked because when it went up all the way to the top i realised i didnt play that b4 la. when it came down i couldnt scream was in a shock and baby was screaming la. hahas. as it was getting darker the mist turn thicker and more moths. damn scary. last but not least we ended the outside theme park with cyclone:) wanted to make a good position during the photoshot when we are going down the slope but we failed:( after that we went to indoor to play euro express. the rides was under repair at that time but we decided to wait:) waited damn long and it was our turn:) did a stupid stunt la. we throw sweets when the ride drove pass starbucks and i shouted CCB:) hahas. after the ride we wanted to join the rest but we can find them. wanted to go up the ferry wheel at 12 because it is our 3rd month:) cool right. but we didnt. we recieve call from b cousin that the arcade is closing soon:) so we make our way down to the arcade and did alot of stunt:) do u know how to get 900 plus points for the basketball game?? very simple:) i went up and use my hand to tap the sensor:) i clear my stage one with 600 plus point:) pro right. hahas. after having fun with the game we decided to head to coffee bean which is at our lobby:) bought 5 different drinks and we share among ourselves:) damn funny. talk alot alot at there and we were all laughing like mad. give my baby our 3rd month gift and it was video down. damn funny. slack at coffee bean till 3 and went back to hotel to slack. hahas. was kind of shock to recieve phone calls during that time la. damn damn damn scaryyy:) baby was freak out la. soon, we realise it was another bunch of teens who were in the same bus as us. they want to borrow coffee from us-.- lame right. hahas. everyone was asleep except me and B. we were talking and slacking til 6 plus lor. and went to sleep. another night with baby:) sooo sweet:) muacks.

day 5
woke up kinda late la due to our lack of sleep. i was the last one to prepare la. hahas. pack everything and camwhore with my hair wet. damnnn ugly. hahas. took our luaggage check the room and everything and we left the room:( damn sad because we need to go home le. took our luaggage to first world and put our luaggage at the waiting area:) paid the bellboy and we decided to have our lunch. at that time baby brother suddenly gone missing. he was supposed to be tagging along with b cousin but he gone missing. b mum was damn damn worried la. and we decided to split into group to find him. found him as soon as we split into groups. baby was damn worried la. he was grabbing at her brother hand. hahas. brought baby brother back and everyone gathered. had our lunch at ah yep:) yeah yeah. started ordering dian xim but most of it were finish. siannnnn. and they order the leftover available diam xim. since i hate eating prawn i only get to eat so of it:) had a wonderful lunch anyway and we were given only half an hour to shop watever we want:) baby sister went to buy chocolate while i went to ask for gold neckess for ahpeh birthday. ask for the price and the price seems unreasonable and unafforable so i decided to skip it. went down to buy a mini sheesha for james for his birthday:) after buying everything we went to collect our luaggage and walked to the busstop where we alighted on the first day. waited for everyone to reach and went up the bus:) we were rushing la so that baby and i can get to sit on the back roll. we managed to get the back roll anyway:) bus travelled down hill and stop to let us buy some snack back to sg:) bought some dao sa pia for foowu and friends:) after buying went back to the bus and traveled back to sg. had one stop for toilet break and another stop for dinner:) this time, i bought cigarette for ahpeh and bought a pipe for him:) after eating our dinner we went back to the bus and travelled back to sg:) was trying to stay awake on the way back:) but we couldnt lor. damnn tired:) hahas. and we couldnt bear to be apart la. sobsob. reach malaysia custom and chop our passport:) after that it was sg custom. since the custom we were going was at woodland i decided to take cab with b mum friends to the nearest mrt and trained home. while b continued her journey back to hougang:) yess:) reached home bathe and unpack everything:)

love spending my 5 days with baby:)
will update more post when im free:)
will be more busyyy laaa:( i had my pfa lamp project to rush and my funiture design project. seriously damn damn busy lately.


all i can say everything is my fault. no point arguing back because everything are just excuses:( i got nothing much to say and all i can do is to put all the blame to myself. haisss. i tried explaining my late calling but it was no use. its all my fault right now and nth can be done:(

off to do my project.
love you lots baby:)